just for interest sake, i would like to conduct a small study of my life to ascertain what percentage of my life I spend doing what I actually  enjoy and want to do versus what I hate but have to do.

Mayhap that's a bad idea ... I fear the results may be depressing.

Ever had one of those days when every time you open your mouth you put your foot in it?  Everytime you say something it gets misinterpreted and when you try and correct the impression created it just makes it worse?  Ever felt like NOTHING you do is ever right or good enough or up to scratch and you're not thin enough or pretty enough or firm enough or funny enough or lively enough or just plan old NOT ENOUGH.

Ever reached the point where you think...

Well fukkof then Batman.  I'm happy with who and what I am and I couldn't give a toss what you think I should be. 

Love me for who I am.  It was good enough in the beginning.

yes indeedy people.  i'm walkin like i've got a cucumber up my ass because i think it makes me look saxxxy.

i'm going to phone the gym and call that evil little buttmunch personal trainer VERY bad names.   soon as some kind person passes me my telephone.

Oh by the way.  I broke up with Jared at the end of last year.  :)

I love the way you challenge my thinking and open my mind to the possibilities outside my comfort zone.

I love the fact that I can be myself around you, without excuses or explanations.

I love the way my body reacts when it's close to yours, the need I feel for you, the intensity of the connection which isn't just sex, but something much deeper which I can't explain.

I love the way our bodies fit together, how we can't seem to get close enough at night and its almost like we're trying to crawl INTO each other.

I love the way you are yourself, with no excuses or apologies for who you are.  

I love your blunt honesty in everything that you do, even though it sometimes it shocks me.

I love it when I catch the sound of your voice down the passage and my stomache tightens and I get this weird warm feeling in my chest that I can't explain either.

I love your eyes and the way you look at me, the intensity behind your eyes and the way it makes me want to crawl in and explore everything that is you.

I love the fact that you know what you want and that you've achieved so much despite so much.

I love the fact that you live your life to the full and that you are willing to explore it fully.

I love so many things about  you that it scares me sometimes.

Analysed Made Me Do It.

.IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY? YOU SAY?
The best damn thing - Avril


2.WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Coming Undone - Korn


3.WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
If I was  your Vampire - Marilyn Manson


4.HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
From Yesterday - 30 Seconds to Mars


5.WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
The River - Live

6.WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Whisper - Evanesance


7.WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Haunted - Evanescance


8.WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Are you the Rabbit - Marilyn Manson


9.WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
I'm so sick - flyleaf (how true)


10.WHAT IS 2+2?
I need a SONG for this?!!!


11.WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Freak on a leash - corey taylor.  (woops!!  that'll teach you to insult my bum!! haha)

12.WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Mystery - Live


13.WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Nosebleed - deftones (mwaha)


14.WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
My own summer - flyleaf

15.WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Right Now - Korn


16.WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
I can do better - avril

17. WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
The red carpet grave - MM


18. WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Some song from Jay


19.WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Lithium - Evanascence


20. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Hypocrite - Seether (NICE!!!)


21.WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
The chemicals between us - Bush



22.WHAT SHOULD YOU POST THIS AS?


 

Arn't the first few twinges of falling in love grand?

the goofy grin, the way your tummy kinda tenses when you see him, the feeling of excitement and anticipation of what lies ahead.  my head feels all light and stupid, my sleeping patterns get funkified and I seem to mood swing between giggely happiness and intense randiness.

Either that, or someone slipped some ectasy in my coffee.